The road least traveled, and so I thought

Adoption.

A word that has become part of our lives in the last 5 years.

I pray that each orphan around the globe will be able to find his/her forever family, regardless of how they make the decision to adopt .

You see, when infertility was explained to me, actually let me rephrase that.... when infertility was not explained to me, because there was no explanation to our medical history as to the reason we couldn't have children, or why these or that treatment did not work, adoption was not part of our plans. I am not ashamed to say that adoption was not even in our vocabulary before all the unexplained infertility came crashing on us like a bucket of cold water in our face. For us, it was Plan B for a family. For us, adoption become the only plan available to have a family. This plan B became our salvation and an infinity love started to grow on us for that little girl we met almost 3 years ago, and now, that little boy that one day next year we are about to meet.

In the mist of our 2nd adoption and very close to traveling once again to China, my thoughts are a bit confused. Not for a moment I doubt that I cannot provide to Emily and Nathan a stable family foundation, a place for them to grow and fulfill their most inner dreams, a house that becomes a home. My doubts are of fear as to not be able to read their feelings, their thoughts about one day, be able to answers all those difficult questions surrounded their birth. How they came into this word and the reason of their birth parents not able to keep them. I'm sure there are many reading materials out there that will be able to help them understand the reasons one day. I want to be able to explain those circumstances to them in the most reasonable and loving way. You see, I am a person that believe in facts, a visual expression of objects I can see. The unknowns are very difficult for me to understand. However, I am also a person who believes and have faith on things I don't see. I have faith because I want to believe. I have faith because God believes in me and I do not want to let him down.

Dada, mommy, Emily and Nathan don't have a drop of blood in commom . However, we have something called forever love for each other. God had a plan in mind and it's been executed beautifully, on his timimg. The road least traveled has become our road for a loving family of four.

I PRAYED TO THE LORD, AND HE ANSWERED ME. HE FREED ME FROM ALL MY FEARS. THOSE WHO LOOK TO HIM FOR HELP WILL BE RADIANT WITH JOY; NO SHADOW OF SHAME WILL DARKEN THEIR FACES. IN MY DESPERATION I PRAYED, AND THE LORD LISTENED; HE SAVED ME FROM ALL MY TROUBLES.

PSALM 34:4-6